Experiences

                          We all go though different things in our lives that effect us to make certain choices to help us better our knowledge on whatever it may be. What I have noticed is that I have many situations that make me think about life in different points of views. We all go through situations in our lives for a reason for the great or good. You can learn from this experience or you can let it break you and take you down with it. There are 3 different occasions that I have been in which I have had to put myself in a different state of mind to figure out how the situation would go. One time was when my girl friend said she might be pregnant , another is when my father walked out on my family and last is when I first started college.
                         




When I was leaving my job I received a call from my father. He said "tell your mother I'm leaving" I had no response I just hung up. I was in shock to think my own father the man who's suppose to take care of and protect his family would just leave. You expect and look up to the only people that you are surrounded by and sadly that's what I had. I wouldn't be the one to come out the same I thought to myself. The only thought going through my head is what am I going to do to support my family and myself. I was coming up with ideas to make a horrible situation a bit better. I was now responsible, I had to take over I applied to better jobs and started looking for a better school. Anything that I know I could benefit from for my future. This has taught me to become the man I am today.
                 




 Another experience was when my girlfriend told me how she was feeling different. Not feeling right always having some type of pain in the stomach area. She missed her period and all I could think about was could she really be pregnant ? I felt like ever since my father had left I didn't know much about how to be a great dad.  I had to pretty much grow up fast and become the man of the house and for my child I became more responsible. Mentally I felt I was ready I pretty much knew all the steps that had to be made I just had to give it time to make sue that everything falls in place. So I pretty much feel that whatever happened with me and my father was a good way to prepare me for this type of situation because it made me want to be better dad and man for my child. She wasn't pregnant but just having the thought that she could have been taught me the steps I need to take and what I need to do when that day comes.
                                
                      


 College, the start of the new beginning. All that goes through my head is how difficult it is going to be to keep up in class. My whole life I've been going to pilot , charter and college preparation schools. One would think I wouldn't be so nervous even though I was some what prepared for what was coming. All I know is that I'm not coming to school paying to get an education and going to just let it go to waste. I am going to work hard in all my classes and focus on my future. I've learned from past experiences that failure is not an option.


ANGER

Every day goes by
I turn my head up to the sky
wonder why
each day
a new person dies
trying to make a change
persevering to make it through the pain
more and more I gain
when I look within 
there Is no stopping me
once I believe
I will forever achieve
the greater goals
of my expectations
eliminating
any distraction
any interference
I will look past it
and I will own it   
then I will show it
to others who struggle
when we huddle
we are unstoppable